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Take me away.

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 15:21:11 GMT

I'm so damn frustrated I wanna cry.
I can't do this anymore.
This needs to end. Soon.

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Just getting used to waking up everyday
Not seeing your face
I just began to stop setting your place
And I stop longing for your warm embrace
And it was God that made me able
To finally sleep at night
Though you're not by my side
Finally I don't hardly cry

See right when I start letting go
Somebody wants to let me know
Can they take your place?
No they can't fill your space
No

I try to move on but you're not gone
'Cause in my heart you still live on
See now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life
And why
Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on
And deep in my heart I wanna move on
And now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life

I finally put your clothes away
You know the ones you wore the day
That you were taken away from me
I just began to stop wearing my ring
And I finally stop playin' our song
When I realizied I was dancin' alone and
Finally God gave me strength
To go on and breath again

See right when I start letting go
Somebody wants to let me know
Can they take your place?
No they can't fill your space
No

I try to move on but you're not gone
'Cause in my heart you still live on
See now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life
And why
Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on
And deep in my heart I wanna move on
And now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life

God knows it's time for me to move on
I want to feel alive again
I want to be in love again
And no matter how hard I try
I can't erase you from my mind
And I gotta find somebody new
But I just can't get over you

I try to move on but you're not gone
'Cause in my heart you still live on
See now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life
And why
Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on
And deep in my heart I wanna move on
And now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life

"I'm sure you've met them. They say they’ll put you back together while they’re tearing everything apart.
And they use the type of lips you can taste for years."

All in love is fair.

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 16:28:29 GMT

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"I burnt my tongue on you. Now I've lost all sense of taste. Or decency. "

First he said that he wouldn't leave me
What a fool to believe that line
Just another one of his obsessions
To help to pass the time

First you said that you wouldn't cheat me
That our love was to last all time
She must have been a big exception
If you're not the 'cheating kind'

All in love is fair
One of us will lose
Is it her or me?
Is it me or you?
Who's it gonna be?
What'cha gonna do?
Are you over me?
I'm not over you

Officially missing you.

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 18:28:48 GMT

How do I love thee?
Let me count the ways.

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All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop
Ooh baby, tell me - why’d you have to go?
‘Cause this pain I feel it won’t go away
And today I’m officially missin’ you

I thought that from this heartache, I could escape
But I’ve fronted long enough to know
There ain’t no way
And today I’m officially missing you

Ooh... can’t nobody do it like you?
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby said it stays on my mind
And I’m officially...

All I do is lay around, two years full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don’t even know you at all
I don’t know you at all

Well, I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it’s safe to say, baby
Safe to say that I’m officially missin’ you

Ooh... can’t nobody do it like you?
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby said it stays on my mind
And I’m officially...

Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby
But I see that’s something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can’t find a way to let go of you

Ooh... can’t nobody do it like you?
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby said it stays on my mind
And I’m officially...

It’s official
You know that I’m missin’ you, yeah
All I hear is raindrops
And I’m officially missin’ you

I <3 Janice & Sonia.

"You know that place between sleep and awake?
The place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I'll always love you, Peter Pan.
That's where I'll be  waiting."
-Tinkerbell

He's out of my life.

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 17:29:02 GMT

It's been a week non-stop. I have to stop listening to this song.
I have to stop.

He's out of my life
He's out of my life
And I don't know whether to laugh or cry
I don't know whether to live or die
And it cuts like a knife
He's out of my life

It's out of my hands
It's out of my hands
To think the two years that he was here
And I took him for granted I was so cavalier
Now the way that it stands
He's out of my hands

So I've learned that love's not possession
And I've learned that love won't wait
Now I've learned that love needs expression
But I learned too late

And he's out of my life
He's out of my life
Damned indecision and cursed pride
I kept my love for him locked deep inside
And it cuts like a knife
He's out of my life

"You think I'm doing this to be romantic.
Standing in public spaces and airing my heart out, oxygen in the blood and all that never was.
I'm not doing it to be romantic.
I'm doing it because it's fucking necessary."

One less lonely girl

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 09:31:44 GMT

Finally got all 11 of us gathered together again. The last time that happened was during Christmas '08 at my place.

Love them soooo much!

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Anthony singing Desperado on Sunday's One Million Stars:

There's just this something about this song that always gets me.
I don't know what it is.
Somehow the lyrics just makes me wanna cry.

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New David Choi video:

He never fails to amaze me. Beautiful.

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How is it that Justin Bieber is only a kid? He is the most adorable!
And I just wanna get my hands on him! Does that make me a pedophile?

And this song is just the sweetest thing ever.
Made me cry like a baby. :/

There's gonna be one less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
There's gonna be one less lonely girl

How many 'I told yous' and 'start overs' and shoulders
Have you cried on before?
How many promises? Be honest girl
How many tears you let hit the floor?
How many bags you packed just to take 'em back?
Tell me that
How many 'either ors'?
But no more, if you let me inside of your world
There'd be one less lonely girl

I saw so many pretty faces
Before I saw you, you
Now all I see is you
(I'm coming for you)
Don't need these other pretty faces like I need you
'Cause when your mine in the world
There's gonna be one less lonely girl

I'm coming for you
One less lonely girl

There's gonna be one less lonely girl

I'm gonna put you first
I'll show you what you're worth
If you let me inside your world
There's gonna be one less lonely girl

Christmas wasn't merry, 14th of February
Not one of them spent with you
How many dinner dates, set dinner plates
And he didn't even touch his food
How many torn photographs are you taping back?
Tell me that you couldn't see an open door
But no more, if you let me inside of your world
There'd be one less lonely girl

I saw so many pretty faces
Before I saw you, you
Now all I see is you
(I'm coming for you)
Don't need these other pretty faces like I need you
And when you're mine in this world
There's gonna be one less lonely girl
I'm coming for you
One less lonely girl

There's gonna be one less lonely girl

I'm gonna put you first
I'll show you what you're worth
If you let me inside your world
There's gonna be one less lonely girl

I can fix up your broken heart
I can give you a brand new start
I can make you believe
I just wanna set one girl free to fall
She's free to fall
Fall in love with me
My hearts locked and nowhere to get the key
I'll take her and leave this world
With one less lonely girl

There's gonna be one less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
I'm coming for you
One less lonely girl

There's gonna be one less lonely girl

I'm gonna put you first
I'll show you what you're worth
If you let me inside your world
There's gonna be one less lonely girl

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I don't know what I'm doing anymore.

Picture spam!

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 17:56:31 GMT

So half of the mobsters and I went to catch This Is It this evening. We were so excited over the movie, we actually bought the tickets one month beforehand. :/

The movie was pretty darn awesome. I don't know why it's awesome. It just is. I guess it's awesome simply because it's a Michael Jackson movie. Plus, I love watching behind-the-scenes footage. Any kind of behind-the-scenes footage. And the fact that this movie was entirely behind-the-scenes footage on Michael Jackson just made it epic for me!

Oh oh! And Kenny Ortega! People can diss High School Musical all they want. I mean, I know it's a cheesy film, with a cheesy storyline, mediocre singing and young actors. But one thing you can't deny is the awesome choreography in the entire High School Musical series. And it's all mad props to Kenny Ortega! Who also happens to be the choreographer for MJ's This Is It concert and director for the movie.

The movie got me crying a bit. The part where MJ started singing I'll Be There. It's my Mom's favourite Jackson 5 song, and I've heard her sing it so many times over the years that I've grown to love it as well. That song makes me cry.

It's really too bad that MJ didn't manage to complete his This Is It concert. It would have been epic. Even though most of the routines, choreography, dance, and effects are exactly the same as his previous concerts like History etc., it would have been epic still cause it's MJ. Every MJ concert is different, though the same. And you can never get sick of watching it.

Michael Jackson
King of Pop

Love Lives Forever

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Had an extremely impromptu birthday celebration for my Auntie on Tuesday. It completely wasn't planned, but it happened anyway. Yay!

I love Duke Dog!

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Hidz Me Baby One More Time's birthday dinner was not complete without Silly Strings. Sigh, when will you guys grow up? Lol!

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Today, Sam said I didn't show enough group-pride 'cause I didn't upload our group logo onto Facebook:

Yes, we are known as the expAndables. The boys came up with the name. And apparently there's a story behind the group name. But I don't know what it is.

So we've been working on a conference called Project Reach for our module Campaign Management. My group's the organizing committee, and so far, it's been pretty crazy.

Project Reach-related photo spam!

Our radio session with Mediacorp Radio - Campus on 938LIVE with DJ Daniel Martin.

Class time!

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Yes. Friday classes, as you can tell, are very productive.

Katrina, will I ever know your heart?

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 17:18:59 GMT

Katrina, I can't stop lookin' in your eyes
But my word don't come out straight
I don't know what to say

On Monday, I tell myself: "You gotta wait Dave,
Don't rush it, don't anticipate
Take it slowly, it's okay
It's okay"

And I just want a chance to know you
To know the woman deep inside
And I don't wanna look back on life
To see this missed opportunity
To get to know you
Even at the risk of lookin' like a fool
To you

On Wednesday, I casually walked on by
To find that you're not there
I act like I don't care

But on Friday, I catch a glimpse of you

I tell myself: "Don't hestitate
You just walk up, and say hello
Say hello"

And I just want a chance to know you
To know the woman deep inside
And I don't wanna look back on life
To see this missed opportunity
To get to know you
Even at the risk of lookin' like a fool
To you

Katrina... will I ever know your heart?

I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep.

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 14:27:13 GMT

I had a pretty awesome weekend with the people I love the most! And I'm looking forward to seeing them (as well as the rest of the family) again this Sunday! Can't wait!

But before that, I have to nurse this nasty fever, sore throat, and cold that I have. I hope it all goes away before the week is up. I have no idea how it happened. It all started with a slightly scratchy throat on Saturday night. I woke up on Sunday with phlegm forming in my throat. Went to meet the cousins for dinner and momentarily forgot all about the discomfort. Then the sniffles hit me while driving home.

I only discovered the fever when I reached home and my Mom gave me a peck on the forehead and realized I was burnin' up. Then she made me take my temperature and - lo and behold! - 38.6 degrees.

It's gotten worse today. My nose is constantly stuffy and drippy and I've been coughing till the cows come home. Ugh. I feel yucky.

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“So you’re breaking my heart into a million pieces, and you’re saying it’s because I deserve better?”
— Dawson’s Creek

It's ridiculous
It's been months and for some reason I just
Can't get over us
And I'm stronger than this

Enough is enough
No more walkin' round with my head down
I'm so over bein' blue
Cryin' over you

Move along.

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 17:01:02 GMT

I actually feel really good after my long outburst on this blog last night. I feel like a whole weight has been lifted off my shoulders. And now that I have all those bottled up feelings out of the way, I feel like my heart is cleared. I guess I just needed to get that all off my chest before I could move on.

In the meantime, enjoy this:

Jillian Marie Thomas rocks!

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I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
I’ll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye

Empty.

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 17:35:00 GMT

This is an emo post. This is a whiney post. This is a post parading how pathetic, needy, obsessed, victimized, fucked up I am. But I need to get all this off my chest. I need to bare it all. Finally. I can't keep all this bottled up in me anymore.

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"Infatuation is when you find somebody who is absolutely perfect.
Love is when you realize that they aren’t and it doesn’t matter."