February 22, 2012
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Makeup Artist Dreams
So I got my first job as a freelance amateur makeup artist on Monday! It was an amazing experience. It wasn't a big shoot or anything. Just a job for an online shop, but I had so much fun. I fretted a lot the night before, despite my boyfriend's countless reassurances. I was afraid I would screw it up. But when the time came, I remained calm, did what I knew best to do, and I did well!As you all know, I've always loved makeup. I understand the mechanics behind applying makeup, I love the art of it, and I appreciate the effort. Makeup is one of those things that I can confidently say I am good at. But I'm good at putting makeup on myself, because I've been doing it since I was 15. I just wasn't so sure how I would fare putting makeup on others.
Initially, I didn't have the courage. After meeting Kane and getting together with him a year ago, he gave me the confidence I needed to take pride in my skill. All my life, I've met boys who would tell me to not put on so much makeup, or that they preferred plain-faced girls. Kane was different. He told me I was beautiful without makeup on, but even still, he understand that makeup was not just about physical beauty to me, it was an art I enjoyed. He encouraged me to put my works out on Facebook, which I did. Everyone photograph I've put on Facebook has gained massive positive responses! My confidence level has risen tremendously. I went on to put my works on my Tumblr page, and have also gained a huge following overnight!
Kane convinced me that if I have a dream, I should go for it, regardless of how crazy it is. And this is how I know he will one day be an incredible father.
I started out as a girl who hoarded cosmetics and loved makeup. But my boyfriend helped me to put my love for makeup to good use. I've toyed with the idea of being a makeup artist once, and when Kane asked me why I was hesitant, I always said it was because I was afraid I was not good enough. This is the one thing that I know I'm good at, but what if others begged to differ? What if I got slammed online? If I got ridiculed? I knew I wasn't strong enough to face such rejection. Hell, I'm not strong enough to face any rejection! If I got any sort of negative response, I knew I would lose faith in myself completely. And I was not gonna let anyone take this one thing away from me.
But my boyfriend managed to convince me, like persuading a tiny rabbit to come out of its rabbit hole. And I don't regret it. If anything, my confidence level has only risen. And I have Kane to thank for that!
And now, this is gonna be my little project - for our future together. I know for sure that I wanna be a full-time mother in the future when I have children of my own. Being a freelance makeup artist would give me the flexibility to work for a few hours a day, and come home to be with my children. I also get to be a full-time wife, taking care of my family, as well as helping to contribute to the household. But these things come slowly. And thus I'm starting now. Hopefully in about 4-5 years time, I will be settled down with my love, and ready to have children. From now till then, 4-5 years would be sufficient time for me to embark on kickstarting this second career of being a makeup artist.
Everything I do is for our future Kane. And that is what I will be working for. Because you are part of my life now. And I will love you forever!
And without futher a-do, here are my works:
And guess what?! I got a second booking for another makeup job tomorrow!! Baby steps! Baby steps!
