April 9, 2012
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Love Can
My little homemade drama on Saturday night just proved to me how badly Jeremy screwed me up previously. On hindsight, I feel so so stupid creating such a panic over something that doesn't even exist. Honestly, I don't even know what came over me. Insecurity floods my senses whenever I say goodbye to him. Almost like I don't know when I'll ever see him again. Which is evidently stupid because he loves me so much.Saturday night was scary. Like something snapped in me. When we parted ways at the end of the night, I felt so lost. Uncontrollable tears which eventually led to a full-blown panic attack. It hurts me hearing how worried you were on the phone when I called you up crying hysterically. And I feel guilty for putting you through all that unnecessary panic. I need to learn how to overcome this separation anxiety.
All I know is - this relationship is perfect. This is possibly the kind of relationship that people dream of. I need to stop overthinking it, and waiting for the other shoe to drop. It's not coming. This is it. The world's most perfect relationship, and I am beyond blessed. I truly am. And deep down inside, I'm infinitely happy. I guess I'm so happy and so blessed that I'm afraid I'm gonna wake up someday and realize that this is all a dream.
I love you so much. Love you so much that I know how truly devastating it would be if I were ever to lose you. And that is why I promise never to leave you. No matter what happens, I will fight for this love. It is worth it. You're good for me. So good that every fiber in my being yearns for you. And you treat me well. I never thought someone could ever love me this much. But you do. You love me. And not just the person I pretend to be sometimes, but you love the real me.
You are the perfect one for me, and I would be a fool to let you go.
David Tao - Love Can我 一直都想对妳说
妳给我想不到的快乐
像绿洲给了沙漠说 妳会永远陪著我
做我的根 我翅膀
让我飞 也有回去的窝我愿意 我也可以
付出一切 也不会可惜
就在一起 看时间流逝
要记得我们相爱的方式就是爱妳爱著妳
有悲有喜 有妳 平淡也有了意义
就是爱妳爱著妳
甜蜜又安心 那种感觉就是妳
