A wonderful Chinese New Year! And my first with the love of my life. And his first, ever! I love how much my family loves him. My nephew and niece adores him, my cousins approve, my uncles and aunties gives us their blessings, and I have my little cousins asking us to quickly get married. I don't think that has ever happened in this family before! Haha. Everything's just..... perfect!

Have I mentioned that I had gotten another tattoo? No? Well, I did. Just a couple of days before Chinese New Year I decided to get inked. This time around, I didn't do as much pondering as I did when I got my first tattoo. But nonetheless, I thought it through and it was something that was close to my heart - Jesus.

I'm a Catholic, I have been since I was a young child. I went to school in a Catholic Convent for 10 years. I attended bible classes for 10 years. I dare say I know a lot about my religion. Somewhere along the course of growing up, I strayed. Not in a criminal or unlawful way, obviously. But more of the spiritual sense. When life got too hard and too difficult to handle, I blamed God. During a particularly tough period of my life just a couple of years ago, I questioned again and again the chivalry of God. I never once doubted his existence, I just thought He had forgotten about me.

But when the pain subsided and the hurt was through, I saw it - the love and generosity of Christ. No matter how many times I denied Him, He never once let me go. Isn't that what true love is all about? When I looked back on life, I realized that I had been in so many situations whereby I could have either gotten into a lot of trouble, or very seriously hurt. And here I am, standing strong. If it ain't because of the grace and guidance of the Lord, then what is it? I refuse to believe in luck, fate, or worse, my own free will. Cause God knows I'm not that smart.

I'm not typically the kinda girl who goes around preaching about religion. I am a firm believer that religion is like a penis. It's fine to have one, it's fine to be proud of it. But please don't whip it out in public and shove it down other people's throats. And that is why I get beyond annoyed when people try to preach to me. I have my own relationship with God. It's personal and it's special.

I was brought up to believe that according to religion, some things are right and some are wrong. But I grew up, I went through life and love, I met many different people, and I learnt better. I learnt that - I've said it before and I'll say it again - God is love, but religion is manmade. And religion is flawed only because men is flawed. We make up our own rules and laws based on what we interpret from the Bible. I have formed my own belief system. And I believe that my God is a benevolent and kind God. He is not gonna judge you based on a flaw. In fact, He loves you in spite of it. Just because you're not what religion wants you to be does not make you a sinner. God isn't that petty. He made you. He made you with your flaws and He loves you.

I know I'm not a perfect Christian. I don't follow many 'rules'. Hell, I don't follow most rules. I work on the Sabbath, I drink alcohol, I am not against pre-marital sex, and I am definitely supportive of homosexuals and gay marriages. It doesn't make me a bad Catholic, just a more opinionated one.

This tattoo on my wrist is a constant reminder that no matter how tough life gets, and no matter what adversities I face, God is there, etched in my skin. Just like how He has carved my name into the palm of his hands.

如果没遇上那么多转弯 怎能来到你身旁
现在往回看每一步混乱 原来都暗藏方向

曾经还以为再不能承担 一滴泪水的重量
今天终于知道眼泪 也可以蕴酿出芬芳

再不用从别人身上去寻找信仰
爱上你 我学会心里面有花 就能够怒放

颜色艳了 香味香了 花都开好了
你是我的 我有爱了 世界完成了
心紧贴着 手紧握着 没有遗憾了
我很快乐
我很快乐
花开好了

新年快乐！
恭喜发财！红包拿来！

Here's wishing you a prosperous and exciting year of the dragon!
To everyone who reads this blog - Happy New Year!

365 days ago, we were coy and shy. I was guarded and insecure - afraid that one small move would chase you away. I was afraid to try and willing myself not to put in too much hope for fear of an impending heartbreak. I put up walls so high it was almost impossible to break in. But you proved me wrong. Everything I ever associated with love - you proved it all wrong.

You complete me and you compliment me. You never judge or doubt me. I have never once had any guy in my life who has given me such overpowering and selfless love. And with you I know that this is real, and that this is forever.

And with your love goes my trust issues and my constant need to push everyone else away. I only need you in my life. Thank you for loving me. I will spend the rest of my life loving you.

365 days just flew by in a flash. It was just like yesterday when we went on our first date and you kissed me. And now, I know you like the back of my hand.

A relationship that's lasted for 365 days leaves a lot of questions to be answered. Like, "what now?" My answer to that is - I'll be sticking with you always. You can be damn sure about that.

I love your smile.
I love your cute face when you sleep. (I stare. Yes, I know, it's creepy.)
I love your silly British humour.
I love your warm, endless kisses.
I love your tickle attacks.
I love your violent hugs.
I love your random expressions.
I love your soft lips.
I love your prickly stubble.
I love your kind eyes.
I love your adorable laugh.
I love you.

I love you Kane. Forever and always. Happy 1st year anniversary!

I won't give up on us
God knows I'm tough enough
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it

10 years of friendship! We don't meet very often. In fact, we don't meet enough, but I love these girls to bits and pieces. And despite the infrequency of our meetups, somehow, whenever we're all in the same room together, we're all 13 again. Teenage girls with so much fun and laughter. I can behave just like a child when I'm with them and not be afraid of judgement. This is friendship.

I'm sitting here waiting for my boyfriend to come watch 'Death Valley' with me! When we're gonna cuddle in bed and fall asleep together. My life is perfect!

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And I think that is why we get along so fine - because I'm the realist, and you're the dreamer.

I've never been in a relationship that's lasted this long before. To get past the beginning and still be able to be around each other all the time and not be annoyed with each other... I think that's pretty amazing. I'm having so much fun with you, it's surreal.

And I think that's love, right? It's really not that complicated. When you truly love someone, there are no issues. Because love trumps everything else. There will be no fights or the feeling that you've been giving too much. Because love is unconditional. Love is patient. Love is kind. Compromise, understanding, faith and trust... all that just comes naturally with love.

It's nice to finally be in a place where it doesn't feel like a battlefield. I'm at a happy place now where I can finally see a future. And this feels incredible.

I look back on 2011, and there is no reason to doubt that is was definitely the best year of my life thus far. There is also no reason denying that the major reason for that is the fact that I found the love of my life. It is strange how one person can make so much difference. And after being together for almost a year (just one month short!), I can't even remember how I used to live my life without him, or how I can ever go on without him.

There are many uncertainties in life, but if there is something I am dead sure about, it is this - I love you. Wholeheartedly, and faithfully. You have saved me in every way possible for a woman to be saved. I don't know what the future holds, but I believe we mould it. And I will never let you go. There will be tough times in the future, there may even come a point whereby we're not sure if we're in it together anymore, but one thing's for sure - we'll never give up.

God knows, I had so much love to give, but no one wanted it. I'm glad you chose me. I'm glad you gave me this chance to love you. Because when I love someone, it is with every fiber in my being. I have made this choice. Yes, choice. It is what it is. It is a choice. You make a choice to be together, and you make a choice to give up. I have chosen to love you, and I have chosen to make you the center of my universe from this day forth.

I'm unlike other girls out there. I believe in a one true love. I believe in devotion, and faithfulness. I believe in you.

Of course, 2011 brought so much more. I've gained some new family members - new baby nephews that I adore. The gift of life is amazing.

I got a new job that I enjoy. I never saw myself in a company like this, or ever doing something similar. But like I said before, God provides. It is His job to provide. All I had to do is to believe in Him and to work hard. And I believe I did. I unknowingly ended up here, and I finally see my career bearing fruit. To be where I am now, and at my age, I can only give credit to the Big Guy above. I know I haven't been the best Catholic, but He has never turned his back on me.

And so, though I don't believe in new year's resolutions, if there is one I have to make, it would be to go to church more. After all that He has done for me, I think taking an hour out of my week for Him is not too much to ask.

So many wonderful things happened this year. I had so much laughter and so much fun. It really is different to finally have someone by my side. On a similar note, Christmas was also so much more magical, having a lover to share the cheer with.

No one knows what 2012 holds. But I believe we can make the most of it. 2011 has been brilliant, and I can only expect 2012 to be better.

Here's to 2012 -
A year of hope, dreams and a new beginning!
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!

We had our Viacom Christmas party a couple weeks ago! Everyone from MTV Asia and Nickelodeon came together for a spanking good time at Privé at Keppel Bay!

It was an incredibly awesome time. I hadn't had any alcohol to drink in a long time, so when my bosses brought out the tequila and vodka as midnight, I was stoned after the first shot. Haven't been tipsy in a long time. I knew I was gone and had to go home the moment I started drunk texting my boyfriend. Haha! Checked my phone the next morning, and from the number of provocative texts I sent my boyfriend, I believe I was quite wasted. Lol!

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Kane and I went to catch Wicked at the Marina Bay Sands Grand Theater! I just love love love that musical so much! The vocals didn't blow me away as much as Kristin Chenoweth or Idina Menzel's one did. But I guess it's hard to compare this to the original singers, who created such a high standard. But that being said, the musical was still almost perfect and I enjoyed it thoroughly!

Kane and I also went on a The Wizard of Oz spree and we watched the entire movie AND the behind the scenes the day after. That movie really is amazing. It speaks of so much and is truly magical. We have decided that this movie will be our little Christmas tradition from now on!

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For those of you who missed the 3rd and 4th episode of 'The Adventures of Kantella'!

I can't wait to spend my very first Christmas with the love of my life! In just 1 more month, we would have been together for 1 whole year! Needless to say, this is the longest relationship I've been in, and also the most fuss-free, the most happy, and the most stress-free! 1 whole year and not a single fight. I can get used to this!