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  • Better together.

    There's no combination of words
    I could put on the back of a postcard,
    No song that I could sing but I can try for your heart,
    Our dreams, and they are made out of real things,
    Like a shoebox of photographs, with sepiatone loving,

    Love is the answer
    At least for most of the questions in my heart ,
    Like why are we here? And where do we go?
    And how come it's so hard?
    It's not always easy, and sometimes life can be deceiving,
    I'll tell you one thing, its always better when we're together

    Mmm, it's always better when we're together
    Yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together
    Well, it's always better when we're together
    Yeah, it's always better when we're together

    And all of these moments just might find their way into my dreams tonight
    But I know that they'll be gone,
    When the morning light sings
    And brings new things,
    But tomorrow night you see
    That they'll be gone too, too many things I have to do,
    But if all of these dreams might find their way
    Into my day to day scene
    I'll be under the impression,
    I was somewhere in-between
    With only two, just me and you
    Not so many things we got to do, or places we got to be
    We'll sit beneath the mango tree now

    Yeah, it's always better when we're together
    Mmm, We're somewhere in-between together
    Well, it's always better when we're together
    Yeah, it's always better when we're together

    I believe in memories
    They look so, so pretty when I sleep
    Hey now, and when, I wake up,
    You look so pretty sleeping next to me
    But there is not enough time,
    And there is no, no song I could sing
    And there is no combination of words I could say
    But I will still tell you one thing,
    We're better together

  • Phuket!

    Last week's 4D3N trip to Phuket was one of the best I've had in the longest time! It was a real stress-reliever, great fun, with great company, and my boyfriend and I celebrated our 7th month anniversary! We got a wonderful hotel with an awesome pool pent room. The swimming pool was literally outside our balcony. So we could, at any time, just step out of our hotel room and jump into the pool. It was a rather inexpensive hotel, definitely a good bargain! For those wondering, it's called 'The Lantern Resort Patong'. Definitely go check it out!

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    On the first day, we mostly recce-ed the area around our hotel. When we arrived at our hotel, it was around 10am in the morning. We found out that Patong beach was just a 10 minute walk away, and the malls were just literally around the corner. Needless to say, we were right smack in the middle of the most happening area in Phuket-Patong!

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    On the second day, we went island-hopping round the various Phi-Phi islands. Phi Phi island is so ridiculously beautiful. I mean, seriously. The water is so clear, and you can see fishes everywhere! We had a hilarious Thai tour guide who made the experience even more wonderful. And it was my first time snorkeling! I gotta be frank though, I was really nervous about snorkeling, since I can't swim very well. The ocean makes me uneasy, plus there were fishes all over, which made me even more terrified. But I figured, hey, I don't know when I'll be doing this again, so what the hell! And I have no regrets! Best experience of my life!

    Later that night, we also took a stroll down Patong, where we encountered the various sleazy bars. Never fails to amaze me how sex is such an open topic in Thailand. Everywhere you turn, there are women dressed in close to nothing, ladyboys, and salespeople coming up to you asking if you would like to see a 'lesbian show', or even a straight up 'f**king show'.

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    On the third day, we spent the entire morning and afternoon lazing on Patong Beach. It drizzled a little but we decided to stick it out, and it paid off! The sun came not not long after bright and shining in the sky! Patong Beach is beautiful. We watched people para-sailing, while we laid there in the sun, occasionally jumping into the ocean to cool off. Man, if only I could do this everyday! Needless to say, we got burnt. Very very burnt. Haha.

    After dinner that night, we decided to go watch the infamous 'Thai Girls Show' aka 'Ping Pong show'. It was just one of those things that you have to experience when you're in Patong. We didn't pay alot. Just 300 baht for a drink, and an hour of watching girls pull a variety of different objects out of their private parts. It was disgusting. There were live birds, terrapins, fishes, frogs, razor blades, Christmas lights, needles etc. It didn't help that the girls weren't very attractive. Most of them were overweight, and late into their 30s or 40s. I feel kinda sorry for them though. Must really suck to have to do this every night for minimum wage. One thing's for sure, I never wanna watch a 'Ping Pong show' ever again.

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    We didn't do much on our fourth and final day. I was pretty exhausted by then. We had breakfast, checked out of our hotels, walked around the nearby malls, then stopped at their Premium Factory Outlet store before going to the airport.

    I had so much fun those 4 days. I definitely wouldn't mind going back to Phuket again. In fact, I really want to! We did a little video blog when we were there. Click on the video below to watch it!

  • 10 years and counting!

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    10 years and counting!

    Stay tuned for my Phuket post!

    2 night without my boyfriend and already I miss him like crazy. Le sigh. I can't live without you baby! I miss your hugs and kisses in the mornings, and your tossing and turning at night. I love you like a love song.

  • The Lazy Song.

    Stace and Sherwin's belated birthday dinner at Chili's!

    I've fallen sick. Don't know how it happened or why it happened, but I woke up to an intense fever this morning. I ended up having to skip an entire day of shoot. Tomorrow is day 3 of 5 of hell week. Cannot wait for this week of crazy shoots to be over, and then, in exactly one week time, it's off to Phuket for some relaxation before coming back and facing the final leg of this production.

    Really cannot wait to get outta this country and lay on the nice sandy beaches of Phuket next Monday.

  • Newfound craze.

     

    It's been a crazy couple of weeks. Yes, I'm still stuck at the 'production from hell'. I have never been in such a torturing production before. Everything that can go wrong has already gone wrong. We have approximately 1 more month of shoots left, and I can only solemnly pray that nothing else screws up. I've had my fair share of laughter and tears working on this production. I have fun with the crew, the cast and all, yet just the mere thought of having to endure another day of shoot makes me wanna bawl my eyes out. It doesn't help that shoots are every weekend. Yes, you read that right. Weekends. Every single weekend. Can't wait for September to come and for us to end this.

    In other news, I'm 10 years too late, I know, but I'm finally catching up on the Harry Potter craze. I know how crazy this sounds, but I'm totally and utterly in love with Harry Potter now. To think 10 years ago, I was insulting Harry Potter and telling everyone how it just wasn't 'my kinda thing'. But then again, I never thought vampires were 'my thing' either. But I fell in love with 'Twilight', 'Vampire Diaries', and more recently 'House of Night'

    And also, I have a new nephew! Sheryl gave birth about 2 weeks ago, and little Gerrard is a cute, tiny little pink baby! Adorable!

    I'm very inspired by my boyfriend to always look on the brighter side of life now. Though sometimes that proves a bit hard to do. But I think I'm a lucky girl, y'know? I have everything I could want and need. I have great family who I love more than life itself, awesome friends, and a loving boyfriend whom I adore.

    This relationship never fails to surprise me on a daily basis, and I'm blessed. I think I'm set, for the rest of my life. I never have to be lonely again, and I'll never have my heart broken again. That's enough to make me the happiest girl in the whole goddamn world.

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    And I wish you could give me the cold shoulder
    And I wish you could still give me a hard time
    And I wish I could still wish it was over
    But even if wishing is a waste of time
    Even if I never cross your mind

    I'll leave the door on the latch
    If you ever come back, if you ever come back
    There'll be a light in the hall and a key under the mat
    If you ever come back
    There'll be a smile on my face and the kettle on
    And it will be just like you were never gone
    There'll be a light in the hall and a key under the mat
    If you ever come back, if you ever come back now
    Oh if you ever come back, if you ever come back


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  • For the first time.

    You make me really happy. You make me smile when nobody else can. I laugh the most when I'm with you. When I see your name pop up on my phone, I smile. You say the cutest things. You make my day. You're always there for me, and you always know what to say. You're too damn cute.

    Your skin
    Oh yeah your skin and bones
    Turn into something beautiful
    D'you know? You know I love you so
    You know I love you so

  • Band camp!

    Went to JB with the band last weekend! It was awesome. Awesome food, awesome shopping, and awesome company! We used the money we made performing at gigs to pay for our meals, and there were still some leftover for and earthquake at Swensen's and cab fare. Lol. Malaysia boleh!

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    What a terribly heartwrenching song.
    Reminds me of you, old friend.
    I miss our friendship.
    And all the good times we had.
    Wherever you are, I hope you're living your dream life.

    I heard that you're settled down
    That you found a girl and you're married now
    I heard that your dreams came true.
    Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you

    Old friend
    Why are you so shy?
    Ain't like you to hold back
    Or hide from the light

    I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
    But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
    I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
    That for me it isn't over

    Never mind
    I'll find someone like you
    I wish nothing but the best for you too
    "Don't forget me," I begged
    "I'll remember," you said
    "Sometimes it lasts in love
    But sometimes it hurts instead."
    Sometimes it lasts in love
    But sometimes it hurts instead

    You know how the time flies
    Only yesterday it was the time of our lives
    We were born and raised in a summer haze
    Bound by the surprise of our glory days

    I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
    But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
    I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
    That for me it isn't over.

    Never mind
    I'll find someone like you
    I wish nothing but the best for you too
    "Don't forget me," I begged
    "I'll remember," you said
    "Sometimes it lasts in love
    But sometimes it hurts instead."

    Nothing compares
    No worries or cares
    Regrets and mistakes
    They are memories made.
    Who would have known
    How bittersweet this would taste?

    Never mind
    I'll find someone like you
    I wish nothing but the best for you too
    "Don't forget me," I begged
    "I'll remember," you said
    "Sometimes it lasts in love
    But sometimes it hurts instead"

    Never mind
    I'll find someone like you
    I wish nothing but the best for you too
    "Don't forget me," I begged
    "I'll remember," you said
    "Sometimes it lasts in love
    But sometimes it hurts instead"

    Sometimes it lasts in love
    But sometimes it hurts instead

  • Bust your windows.

    I never considered myself someone with trust issues or anything like that. I mean, sure, I have baggage from past experiences, but who doesn't? But recently, I'm starting to think of myself as slightly (understatement) neurotic.

    I don't think it is an abrupt development. More like a dormant volcano waiting for the right time to erupt. And I know it's not right. I shouldn't be feeling this way.

    What Jeremy did to me in the past was wrong. I know that. He knows that. Everyone who witnessed it knows that. But I always held on to the belief that I had a huge part to play in it. Granted that despite everything that happened, I never once let him down. How could I when I was so crazy over him? Crazy enough to knowingly and consciously send him into the arms of another girl, just wishing and praying he would eventually come back.

    Which brings me to my point. The moment I found out Jeremy was a lying, cheating bastard, I should have walked away. I should've known better. I should've taken the upper hand and orchestrated the drama. But instead, I gave him the power. Instead of making the clever choice of leaving and choosing my fate, I left it to him instead. I threw whatever pride I had away and begged him to stay. Why? When he should have been the one begging me.

    Simply put, he let me down, but I wasn't smart enough to let him go. So while he created the heartbreak, I intentionally prolonged it. And then when he made the cruel choice to cut me off cold turkey, I hung on for months. Stupidity is my middle name.

    And now I'm living with the laundry list of once having a cheating ex-boyfriend - Paranoid? Check. Sensitivity? Check. Overly-suspicious? Check.

    And this is wrong. So wrong. And I hate him for that. I hate him for destroying my fairytale dream and filling me with all these uncertainties. Why should I be living with these nightmares while he gets to party it up with that slut he calls his girlfriend? So no more. I'm not gonna let him take over anymore.

    No more walking around on eggshells and waiting for the other shoe to drop. I will cherish my relationship and only think positively. This means too much to me to pollute it with unnecessary baggage.

    And honestly, I'm so glad he screwed up the way he did. Because otherwise, I wouldn't have found what I have right now. And I wouldn't be this happy.

    What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
    What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
    What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
    What goes around comes back around

    There was a time
    I thought, that you did everything right
    No lies, no wrong
    Boy I must've been outta my mind
    So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
    You showed your ass and I saw the real you

    Thank God you blew it
    Thank God I dodged the bullet
    I'm so over you
    So baby good lookin' out

    I wanted you bad
    I'm so through with that
    Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
    You turned out to be the best thing I never had
    And I'm gon' always be the best thing you never had
    I bet it sucks to be you right now

    So sad, you're hurt
    Boo hoo, oh, did you expect me to care?
    You don't deserve my tears
    I guess that's why they ain't there
    When I think that there was a time that I almost loved you
    You showed your ass and baby yes I saw the real you

    Thank God you blew it
    Thank God I dodged the bullet
    I'm so over you
    Baby good lookin' out

    I wanted you bad
    I'm so through with that
    Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
    I said, you turned out to be the best thing I never had
    And I'll never be the best thing you never had
    Oh baby I bet sucks to be you right now

    I know you want me back
    It's time to face the facts
    That I'm the one that's got away
    Lord knows that it would take another place, another time, another world, another life
    Thank God I found the good in goodbye

    I used to want you so bad
    I'm so through with that
    Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
    You turned out to be the best thing I never had
    And I will always be the, best thing you never had.
    Best thing you never had

    I used to want you so bad
    I'm so through with that
    Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
    Oh you turned out to be the best thing I never had
    Oh I will never be the best thing you never had
    Oh baby, I bet it sucks to be you right now

    Goes around, comes back around
    Goes around, comes back around
    Bet it sucks to be you right now
    Goes around, comes back around
    Bet it sucks to be you right now
    Goes around, comes back around
    Bet it sucks to be you right now

  • 6 months.

    In 4 days time, it would be 6 months. Officially half a year.
    And with each day that goes by, we learn more and more about each other.
    We are also more and more inseparable.

    Some say that 6 months is the breaking point of a relationship.
    The end of the 'honeymoon phase' where everything starts spinning outta control.

    Well, I don't know about those people,
    but I think our 'honeymoon phase' just started!

    I love you Kane!

    I'm just listening to the clock go ticking,
    I am waiting as the time goes by.
    I think of you with every breath I take,
    I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine.
    You're all I see, in everything.

    I just wanna hold you,
    I just wanna kiss you,
    I just wanna love you all my life.
    I normally wouldn't say this,
    but I just can't contain it.
    I want you here forever,
    right here by my side.

    All the fears you feel inside,
    and all the tears you cry,
    they're ending right here.
    I'll heal your heart and soul;
    I'll keep you oh so close.
    Don't worry; I'll never let you go.
    You're all I need, you're everything.

    I just wanna hold you,
    I just wanna kiss you,
    I just wanna love you all my life.
    I normally wouldn't say this,
    but I just can't contain it.
    I want you here forever,
    right here by my side.

    No one else will ever do.
    I got a stubborn heart for you.
    Call me crazy, but its true; I love you.
    I didn't think that it would be,
    you have made it clear to me.
    You're all I need.

    I just wanna hold you,
    I just wanna kiss you,
    I just wanna love you all my life.
    I normally wouldn't say this,
    but I just can't contain it.
    I want you here forever,
    right here by my side.

  • Baby shower

    We threw Sheryl a baby shower last Sunday! We even got her a cake embellished with football shaped fondant! Since, y'know, her baby is named after Liverpool's midfielder Steven Gerrard. The baby shower was fun! There were too many people squished into a flat, but I had fun!

    Plus I got to see my baby nephew again!

    Deklen is sooooo cuteee! Haven't seen him since Chinese New Year, and boy has he grown! He even has little baby teeth growing now! My maternal instincts go bonkers whenever I'm in close proximity to little babies.

    Can't wait for Baby Gerrard to arrive! Doctor tells Sheryl her predicted delivery date is 22nd July. That's so soon! Woohoooooo!