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Grandma's birthday dinner a couple weeks back!

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Oh! And did I mention that David Choi was in Singapore again last week?!

David Choi rocks. His music rocks. His jokes rock. His videos rock. And my boyfriend rocks for accompanying me to go  ogle at  appreciate another man.

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So what have I been up to? Nothing much. Trying to live, work, play, and figure out the meaning of life. Work-wise, pre-production is over, so now we're in full-scale shoot-mode. Shoots after shoots after shoots. I was juggling 2 projects at the same time at one point. Work is not very difficult, or stressful, just tedious. You know? Having to be on shoot for 16 over hours a day is no joke. Thankfully my position does not require me to be on set the entire time. I can come and go as I please.

Recently, I've been stressing out a lot about the future. I need to save more money. Somehow, money and I just aren't meant to be. Whatever money I have, I spend. Correction: over-spend. I need to save. Seriously. Every month, I hold my pay cheque in my hands and make a silent promise to save a portion of it. But then I see the word 'SALE' and I lose my senses. I can't do this anymore. I need to grow up. Be a responsible adult.

Pray for me won't ya?

It's no longer 'puppy love'. I know it, deep in my bones. Because I've been through enough to know what this feeling inside me is. And the more we spend time together, the more I'm convinced that this was meant to be. Because I know that no matter what happens, I will do whatever it takes to make this work, for infinity and beyond.

And the most important thing is, I know you will never hurt me. And this is something I have never been able to say about any guy who has been in my life. But with you, I'm sure. And I promise, I will never hurt you too.

5 months with you was all it took for me to understand the past 5 years of my life. All the heartbreaks and confusions were there to teach me how to love you.

I am made up of one hundred percent flaws, and I can promise you that there is not one ounce of perfection in me. But, good intentions hold me together, and I hope that counts for something.

I'm not an expert at relationships. I mean look at me, I messed up so many. I don't know how to handle every fight we're going to have, and I will never be a perfect person. We're both still young though, and we still have a lot more to learn. But I'm willing to take chances, to risk it all, and learn everything there is to know just so I can keep us together. I won't give up on you.

Never in a million years did I think I'd find someone so utterly and completely perfect. Someone who makes me happier than I have ever dreamed I could be. Someone that would touch my life so profoundly and give me a whole new reason to breathe. But then I found you, and realized that everything I anticipated you to be, doesn't even compare to what you are.

I'm having the worst case of ulcers. Ugh. I have resorted to eating (or rather, drinking) porridge. And I hate porridge. It's like, rice that you drink?! Where is the logic in that? These ulcers are making me very grumpy. And they hurt a hell lot. Especially in the mornings when my mouth is dry. Everytime I drink water or eat, I can literally feel tears spring to my eyes 'cause of the pain. It's torture!

Work has been going well. I was stressing out a lot in the first week because I was intimidated by the task that was handed to me. But now that I actually got it sorted out and started working on it, it's actually quite alright. Of course, it's too soon now to say anything since we're only in the pre-production stage. Once we go into the actual shoot in 2 weeks time... all hell's gonna break loose. As a matter of fact, I got my callsheet for the first day of shoot, and it's on a Saturday. I HATE WORKING WEEKENDS!

I like working like this - in a team, where everyone has a specific task. It increases efficiency and that means we get the job done. In my previous company, because there was only 2 of us, I was pretty much superman - location manager, casting director, production manager, props manager,  sound guy, producer, assistant producer, production assistant... need I go on? That gets very confusing after a while, and it also means I can't really focus. But that being said, it was a good experience for my first full-time job as a fresh graduate. I got to try my hands at everything. But now that I'm working in a bigger team at a bigger company, it's easier.

Nonetheless, weekends please come quick!

In other news, Vampire Diaries season 2 ended with an annoying cliffhanger. And that frustrates me. I need to know what happened! Did Stefan go with Klaus? Are Elena and Damon in love now? And what happened to Jeremy?! How come he can see Anna and Vicki?! Oh my God. I need answers.

Also, I'm terribly sad Michael Scott left The Office. I bawled my eyes out watching Michael Scott's farewell because I really don't want him to go. He's like, the whole reason why The Office exists. Without him, the whole show is pointless. And I've been watching him on that show for years now! Bleh! Don't goooooooo!

I've been craving the ice-cream I had from Cold Stone last night. Cheesecake and cake batter. Om nom nom nom. I'm also craving french fries, and cheese, and grapes. I also want pizza and a nice bowl of soup. Lo and behold, the PMS has started.

And also, I want to bake. I haven't baked in a very long time and I want to bake. I want to bake an oreo cheesecake. So I need to go find the perfect recipe. I also need to go get ingredients. Maybe I'll bake tomorrow. Whaddya think? Chances are, though, that I would come back from work, shower, and melt into my bed.

Speaking of work, I guess I can't complain much. I like this whole freelance thingamagig. I like the idea of knowing that everything will be done deal in a matter of months and I can move on to another project. I'm very tempted to just be a freelancer from now on. However, the idea of not having any CPF is terrifying. Knowing my inability to save any money, what if I don't have enough to buy a house in a few years time? Decisions decisions.

But like I said, work is fine. I feel like maybe I've been overthinking too much. The unknown is always scary. Especially for someone like me. I need to have more faith in what I can do. I need to know that no matter what happens, God will provide for me. I just need to do the groundwork. I need to work hard, and He will move mountains for me.