We had such an amazing time last night at Josephine's wedding dinner! Our table was a rowdy madness. But it was fun!

The Accidental Wakeup had a chance to perform once again. This time around though, I was this close *pinches fingers* to calling my bandmembers at the last moment and telling them I wasn't gonna go on stage. I've been nursing the worst cough and cold since last weekend. And I had an on and off fever that left me completely spent.

But I figured I couldn't abandon my bandmates at the eleventh hour. So I risked overdosing on cough drops and went down for the gig anyway. I think I sounded like crap on stage with my croaky voice, but I think everyone was too busy eating to notice. Haha. Oh wells. Shit happens.

So today marks the end of me being an unemployed economic liability. It's back to work tomorrow. Bleh. I hate first days at work. You're not really sure what to expect, who you're gonna meet, if people are gonna be friendly, if you're gonna make any friends. So yea, I'm kinda nervous. Doubt I'll be getting any sleep tonight due to the damn insomnia. At least it's Friday tomorrow. So that's a plus!

I think I need to visit the doctor soon. I've been getting these weird headaches that won't go away. Like a pounding at the back of my eyes. It isn't an excruciating pain, and it doesn't affect my daily activities, but it's uncomfortable. It's been going on for about a week now. I decided not to let the headaches bother me too much so I ignored it. I refused to take panadol or let the headaches stop me from going out and having fun. But it's gotten to a point now where by the end of the day, I lie in bed with a full-blown migraine.

Speaking of bed, my insomnia is back.... I think. For the past few nights I've been tossing in bed for hours before I can fall asleep. Last night, I couldn't fall asleep till about 5.30am. It's a frustrating feeling lying in bed, tired as hell, yet fully awake. I was close to tears last night tossing and turning in bed.

But insomnia means alot of extra time in the middle of the night to think random thoughts. I'm starting to realise that I miss a lot of people who used to be in my life. Either family members who are no longer here, or friends that I've lost.

It's sad to know that people you used to pour your heart out to are nothing but mere strangers now. Yet every now and then, when something great happens - when someone says something funny, when I watch a great show, or when my boyfriend does something extra sweet - I still always wanna run and tell it to you.

Dinner last Sunday at my uncle's place to celebrate Mother's Day. Look at our angry birds cake! Didn't taste very good though. Haha. Oh wells, kinda expected it.

Not many people know this about me (mainly because I look like some annoying, frail, high-maintenance girl), but I'm quite the adrenaline junkie! Roller coasters are really not a big issue for me. I mean, I do get scared, but the excitement of the ride trumps the fear. I'll never hesitate to get on a ride that throws me in the air and then slams me back down.

The scariest rides I've been on are definitely those in the theme parks of Korea and Taiwan. Man, those will make you pee your pants!

Anywayssss, I finally got my ass on the Battlestar Galactica, which I heard is supposedly the highest roller coaster in the world? I don't buy it. It wasn't that bad. But fun fun fun! Thank God we had fine weather on Sunday. And by 'fine', I mean scorching sun and sweltering heat. But hey! It's beats rain! You see, when you pray, God listens.

I'm one of those retards who will keep going back to Universal Studios whenever I have the chance to. I know it's dumb, because how many times can you be excited over the same place over and over again right? I'm just one of those people who is a sucker for consumerism. So sue me.

I am currently now nursing a sprained neck, multiple bruises and a terrible sunburn which would eventually lead to unsightly tanlines. In short, I look like a victim of domestic abuse. But it was all worth it! I got to see my Madagascar penguins!

So for those of you who don't know - I've left my job. Which was kinda a bittersweet moment, honestly. The problem with me is that I grow attached to people and things very easily. I'm just one of those people who let my emotions run my life, and tend to tag everything/everyone with an emotional memory. So though this job was, well, merely a job, it meant something to me.

It wasn't my first job in production, but it was my first job fresh outta university. I've grown attached to the people I work with, and that is always something hard to part with. But hey, life's like this. This will not be the last time I have to leave a job, so I guess I just gotta get used to it!

I'm fortunate enough to have been given the chance to handle more than expected during the past year. I've learnt so much, it's incredible. I've met so many amazing and talented people, made so many new friends, and just gained so much experience. But I think it has come to a point where I reached the peak of my learning curve. I was getting restless and frustrated with, ironically, how comfortable I was. I was losing passion, and I figured what I needed to get me back on track was a different kind of challenge and a change in environment. I'm satisfied with the decision I made!

Had a job interview today. In my mind, I think it went great. But you know, these things are very hard to say, and I don't wanna jinx it. I don't wanna get my hopes up either, cause that means tremendous disappointment if I don't get the job. So now all I can do is hope and pray! But nonetheless, I really like the people I had my interview with today. Amazingly funny people with so much life! And I love how they are not only colleagues, but friends. And that's important for me. I think it's essential in a job to build relationships. Someone you can not only work with, but talk to and have fun with. I'm not the kinda person who necessary likes to draw the line between friends and colleagues. If need be, why can't we be both? Relationships are important in the workplace. It keeps everyone grounded and retains sanity.

Anyways, I'm gonna take this time off of work to rethink my life goals and missions. Gonna catch up on my beauty sleep and just relax and recover. Honestly though, I feel guilty even saying this. Who am I to say that I need to take a break from work? I've worked for a year. What is that compared to someone like my Dad who has worked for decades, yet doesn't even complain about being tired?

I really need to be less self-centered and less self-pitying. I think it only makes me weak and more jaded about life.

Anyhoooooooo, I've been feeling a lot happier these days! Which is always good. Met up with The Accidental Wakeup yesterday for band practice and as usual, we spent more time fooling around than doing any actual work. Lol! We have a wedding gig on the 11th of May, and we've picked our setlist, now we just got to get down to practicing. We actually spent a good 30mins last night planning Thomas' fictional election campaign. We figured since he's such a people-person, he might as well contest during the upcoming elections and be a one-man party! Edwin went a bit overboard with the campaign slogans - 'Uncle Thomas Wu - He will put a bun in your oven!' Haha! What nonsense! Needless to say, by the end of the night, we were rolling around the floor in stitches, laughing till we cry.

I'm supposed to meet up with Thomas sometime next week to give him a crash course on blogging. Lol! Since we're both so free now that he only teaches a few times a week and I'm unemployed, we have lots of time in the coming weeks to hang out. Woohoo!

In other news, the Fridays are super underrated when you're unemployed. Like, I'm not even in the TGIF-mood. Hahahaha. Major bummer (MAJOR BUMMER! *salutes*).

Of course, my very awesome surprise birthday dinner disguised as band practice! Ended up watching Kung Fu Panda the whole night! I love these people to bits and pieces!

And a gazillion hugs and kisses to my awesome bandmates (and boyfriend! muah!) for the surprise birthday celebration last night!

The Accidental Wakeup rocks!