"I have a history of making decisions very quickly about men.
I have always fallen in love fast and without measuring risks.
I have a tendency not only to see the best in everyone,
but to assume that everyone is emotionally capable of reaching his highest potential.
I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a man,
rather than with the man himself,
and I have hung on to the relationship for a long time (sometimes far too long)
waiting for the man to ascend to his own greatness.
Many times in romance I have been a victim of my own optimism."

“Have I told you lately that I love you?
Have I told you there’s no one else above you?
Fill my heart with gladness, take away all my sadness,
Ease my troubles, that’s what you do.”

I had the most amazing time in Hong Kong with the love of my life last December! Considering our workload in our daily lives, this was indeed a much needed break for the both of us. 

We met Rapunzel and Cinderella in Hong Kong recently.

And when we did, Kane took me in his arms and told the princesses: "This is my princess."

I'm starting to wonder if maybe it's time to get this anxiety diagnosed.

I've spent the past hour and a half on the floor sobbing and breathing into a bag.

This needs to stop. 

"Jim, I called off my wedding because of you. And now we're not even friends.
And things are just, like, weird between us, and that sucks. And I miss you.
You were my best friend before you went to Stamford. And I really miss you.
And I shouldn't have been with Roy. And there were a lot of reasons to call off my wedding.
But the truth is, I didn't care about any of those reasons until I met you."

"So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both
happy and sad and I’m still trying to figure out how that could be."

I read this book many years ago and I can't help but feel like Charlie. I've never been the popular kid, or the one who got a lot of attention. I was always a kind of loner, too shy to say hi, someone who would rather observe than experience. I tended to fade in the background, and that's ok. I was a wallflower. 

But then I met the love of my life, and in that moment, I swear we were infinite. 

I wanna build a giant moat around me. A giant moat that keeps out fair-weathered friends, and generally people who take me for granted. I'm tired of tears spilt and empty promises. I'm tired of feeling lonely. I'm tired of feeling left out. Why am I always the one left out? I need to realize that my own happiness is not dependent on others anymore. I'm not alone. So why am I so lonely?

You know what's the worst part? Time and time again I tell myself to stop giving a damn. Unfortunately, I seldom take my own advice.

Am I that unlikable?

So just a few weeks ago, my cousins Charissa and Melchor came back from Sydney! It's been almost 2 years since I last saw them and I miss them so much!!!! We always have so much fun when we're together. We took the opportunity to visit the newly opened Legoland in Malaysia!

Legoland was alright. Sparse (for a lack of a better word). Quite disappointing in fact. But what made it fun was the company! I love these people so much! 

And just like that, a couple of weeks flew by in a blink of an eye, and it was time to see Charissa and Melchor off at the airport again. It makes me sad. Would be another 2 years or so before we get to see them again. So this is what being an adult feels like eh? 

Gonna miss you guys! Till me meet again!

I bawled like a baby watching this.

This hits close to home. Thankfully, I've found my last.

My who, what, where, when and how.