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  • I woke up this morning, and the city looked the same.
    The people looked the same.
    Everything looked the same.

    But it wasn't.

    Everything has changed.

    And just like that.... there's gonna be one less lonely girl in this world.

  • Closer

    Alice: I amuse you, but I bore you.

    Dan: No, no.

    Alice: You did love me?

    Dan: I’ll always love you. I hate hurting you.

    Alice: Why are you?

    Dan: Because I’m selfish. And I think I’ll be happier with her.

    Alice: You won’t. You’ll miss me. No one will ever love you as much as I do.
    Why isn’t love enough    ?

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  • Love is the answer, at least for most of the questions in my heart.

    Today, my Dad asked me about you. Which is the strangest thing in the world, because my Dad never remembers anyone I know. But he asked me about you, and he asked how come I haven't been talking about you at all, when you're all I used to talk about before.

    Honestly, I haven't been thinking about you much either. Life's good. I'm good. You're good. I guess God really had a plan.

    Today, my Dad asked me about you. Which is the strangest thing in the world.

    I'm so glad you made time to see me
    How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
    I haven't seen them in a while
    You've been good, busier than ever
    We small talk, work and the weather
    Your guard is up and I know why

    'Cause the last time you saw me
    Is still burned in the back of your mind
    You gave me roses and I left them there to die

    So this is me swallowing my pride,
    Standing in front of you saying: "I'm sorry for that night"
    And I'd go back to December all the time
    It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
    Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
    I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright
    I go back to December all the time

    These days I haven't been sleeping
    Staying up playing back myself leaving
    When your birthday passed and I didn't call
    And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
    I watched you laughing from the passenger side and
    Realized I loved you in the fall

    And then the cold came
    The dark days when fear crept into my mind
    You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

    So this is me swallowing my pride,
    Standing in front of you saying: "I'm sorry for that night"
    And I'd go back to December all the time
    It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
    Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
    I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
    I go back to December all the time

    I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
    And how you held me in your arms that September night,
    The first time you ever saw me cry
    Maybe this is wishful thinking
    Probably mindless dreaming
    But if we loved again I swear I'd love you right

    I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
    So if the chain is on your door, I understand

    But this is me swallowing my pride,
    Standing in front of you saying: "I'm sorry for that night"
    And I'd go back to December
    It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
    Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine and
    I go back to December, turn around and make it alright and
    I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind and
    I go back to December all the time

  • It's always better when we're together.

  • There's no combination of words I could put on the back of a postcard.

    Attended Lian Kuang and Gracie's wedding ceremony last Saturday! The Accidental Wakeup was invited to perform at the wedding luncheon, as well as become part of the choir during the wedding mass in church!

    It was a crazy crazy day, but we had fun! I woke up at 6am and got ready. Ryan and Mel came to pick me up at 7am and we were in church by 7.30am for last minute choir practice. Straight after mass ended, the band and I rushed to the Legends at Fort Canning for sound check. Sound check was kinda a disaster, but let's not dwell on that.

    We missed Thomas, but we had a great time!

    After the wedding ended, we still had to lug all our musical instruments back to the car. Ryan and I were craving Koi's green tea macchiato so bad so we went to get one before going home. Was supposed to attend Jordan's birthday party that night, but I was so dead beat I couldn't get my ass outta the house after going home.

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    The Vampire Diaries has been my latest obsession. Seriously. I cannot get enough of it. I finished the entire first season in a matter of days, and now I'm already in my second season. It's addictive!

    The Vampire Diaries fulfills my Twilight fantasy - minus the bad acting, casting and everything. Yes. The Vampire Diaries would be my perfect version of Twilight. I loved the Twilight book series, but when they turned it into a movie, they totally ruined it for me by casting all the wrong people for the roles. But The Vampire Diaries got it all right! Hot, sexy, smothering vampires!

    And omghhkp Ian Somerhalder......

    He is way beyond hot. His eyes can make a grown man cry. I mean, seriously, Robert Pattinson needs to learn a thing or two from Ian Somerhalder about being a real drop-dead gorgeous vampire. I'm in loveeeeee with him!

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    Stella - you pathetic, whiny little bitch. You better learn how to control your insecurities, or you're gonna let it get the better of you.

    Sunday..... Sunday.....

  • You've got a smile that could light up this whole town.

  • Up up here we go.

    Met up with the cousins and friends last Friday evening for Jimi and Teresa's farewell dinner. They're back in Sydney now, and we're gonna miss them! We had awesome but slightly dodgy hotpot at Bugis. And the best part of the evening was Koi's green tea macchiato. Omghhkp. So good. I've been craving it so bad ever since that night. Just this evening, Ryan and I were having dinner at McDonald's before choir practice, and we were so tempted to go scout around for Koi. Lol.

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    I went to fly a kite last Saturday. It was kinda awesome, in a very organic and nostalgic way. Even though I've never flown a kite before. We did manage to get the kite up in the air. Though the wind was ridiculous and kites were flying rampant everywhere. But I had so much fun! And it helps that I had great company.

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    So I don't typically make new year's resolutions. Why make resolutions that you know you're never gonna keep right? But I'm thinking maybe this year, I'll try to be a little bit different. Maybe, just maybe, this year I'll make a couple of more realistically attainable resolutions. And when 2012 hits, I'll come back here and see if I managed to keep at least half of them.

    2011 Resolutions (in no order of importance):

    - Eat healthier
    I don't know man. Just typing this makes me wanna grab a Big Mac and stuff it into my face. Ok, let's put it this way, I'm not gonna turn into an overnight health freak. I'm not gonna stay away from my fast food and carbs. 'Cause, well, that's just plain impossible. Instead, I'm gonna try to include more healthy options into my daily diet. One thing's for sure, I need to drink more water, which is something I've been doing pretty well and I can tell its beneficial because my complexion has improved drastically. Next, I need more greens in my diet. I promise to finish my vegetables!

    - Save money
    About 4 months ago, I opened up a second bank account just to save money. And I know this sounds totally out of this world, but I've been saving money for.... well.... my future children. I know, I know, I'm not even sure if any guy would be crazy enough to wanna have babies with me. But I figured if I do end up childless, at least I'll have whole stash of extra money right? I asked Rudy the other day if he thinks I'm crazy to be saving money for my future children, and he said no, I'm smart. I'm gonna trust him on that. I just have high hopes for my future children. And I want nothing but the best for them. Plus, if I save religiously, I may even have money to fund my own dream wedding some day!

    - Being sensible about purchasing/keeping clothes
    If I haven't worn a piece of clothing in more than 6 months, I am going to give it away to someone who needs it more than I do. Doesn't matter how much I love that article of clothing. I will give it away.

    - Work harder
    That is pretty self-explanatory.

    - No more games
    Yes. No more games. This is the highlight of my resolution. When it comes to boys and matters of the heart - NO MORE GAMES. And by games, I mean the little flirting game I play whenever I meet someone I like. I always feel the need to morph into someone I think that boy will like. So I wear these cute little outfits, and act a certain way. I don't wanna do that anymore. This time around, I'm gonna be myself. Just plain ol' me. I'll say whatever comes to mind, wear whatever makes me comfortable, and act naturally. If he can't handle me the way I am, it's never gonna work out anyway. What you see is what you get.

    This will suffice for now. Come 2012, it would be fun to come back here and see just how disciplined I've been. Wish me luck!

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    I can feel myself falling sick, and that is a major bummer. Singapore's been extra cold these days. So cold that I shiver when walking on the streets. Darn weather's been screwing my immune system up! I've been sneezing like a dog (no offence to dogs) and I can feel a sore throat approaching. Which is bad bad bad because The Accidental Wakeup has a wedding to perform at this Saturday!

    Please Lord! I know You hate to see me sick, so please! Give me the strength to fight this!

  • Dear Diary

    Dear Heart,

    I met a boy.
    Please be prepared to get very very broken.

    Don't say I didn't warn you.

    Love,
    Me

  • 2011!

    I had the most awesomest New Year Eve's party ever! And for 2 years in a row, it's the last few moments of the old year, and first few moments of the new year spent with the loves of my life! Honestly, I don't know what I would do without these people in my life! And everyday I thank God for giving them to me. I mean, we get annoyed at each other sometimes, so much so that we wanna murder each other, but at the end of the day, this is where true love prevails. You just can't beat the bond we have!

    We had a pot luck party. All the cousins and friends were over. The usual clique. Of course this time around, we have Jimi and Teresa with us once again, all the way from Sydney! The clique is reunited! Haha. My uncles and aunties all came over too. Suffice to say, it was too many people cramped into a tiny flat. But hey! I say there's no better way to welcome the new year than to have your house filled with people you love!

    And yes, we got drunk. Yes, we played games. Yes, we laughed till we cried. Yes, things got out of hand! Lol!

    The more time I spend with these people, the more I'm convinced that there is no way not to have fun when these people are around! I love them love them love them to bits! I'm so blessed!

    How did you spend your new year??

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    Biggie Spencer and Awkward Turtle are finally mine!!!

    So if you follow this blog closely, or my Twitter, or my Facebook, you would know about my unhealthy obsession with Wong Fu Productions. I loveeee them! I just think they're such an inspiration. Especially for someone like me who just started out in the media industry, working in an independent production house, and with a passion for making videos. The boys from Wong Fu Productions just makes me believe that it is possible to do something big, even if you're just making comical videos on youtube. And more than that, they're Asians. Not just Asians, but Chinese! Asian pride!

    And of course, Wong Fu not only makes the best videos on the internet, they also sell their own brand of merchandise - 'Are You a Nice Guy'. And under that brand, they have t-shirts and various adorable plush toys. My favourites are definitely Biggie Spencer and Awkward Turtle.

    Biggie Spencer is an evolved version of the original Spencer, which is basically a bear. They stopped selling those, and now they only have Biggie Spencer. Awkward Turtle is one of the pioneers in their Awkward Animal series. And he's adorable.

    So I recently discovered another Wong Fu fan - my university mate, Elizabeth. We found out about each other's obsession with Wong Fu through Twitter, 'cause we're constantly retweeting Wong Fu. Haha. So when Elizabeth told me that her friend was coming back from the States, I just knew we HAD to get Biggie Spencer! So we did! We ordered and Biggie Spencer and Awkward Turtle travelled with Lizzie's friend's all the way back to Singapore from the States!

    How damn unbelievably cute!
    And I'm pretty sure each Spencer was touched by one of the WFP boys!

    So Biggie Spencer is my new love. I drag him all over the house and hug him to death. Even my Mom is in love with him. She thinks he's sooo cute! And he is!

    I can't wait for more Wong Fu videos! Wong Fu 2011!!

  • Bye bye 2010.

    2010 has been, for the lack of a better word, awesome. I mean, seriously. I have nothing to complain about this year. I had a fulfilling year, and I dare say that for the majority of it, I was pleasantly and genuinely happy.

    I mean, honestly, as compared to 2009, anything could be great. Heh. You know what I mean. But I was right. After a year has gone by, everything is just a memory. Whatever heartbreak that I had has healed perfectly, and now all that's left is probably just a slight scar for memory's sake. The heart heals eventually... The heart heals.

    I had a lot of fun memories in 2010. I remember making a vow at the beginning of this year - that is to dedicate 2010 to family, since I've spent most of 2009 wallowing in my own self-pity. And I think I stuck pretty well to that resolution.

    In 2010, I saw a flurry of cousins get married. 4 of them to be precised. In just one year, 4 of my cousins are Mr and Mrs!

    And not only that, I have one more nephew, and one more... well... I don't know if it's a boy or a girl yet. But hey! I'm super excited to find out!

    Took a couple of little trips here and there this year too. Bintan with my girlies, and Malacca with my family. And of course, the year was peppered with little roadtrips to JB here and there.

    I also celebrated my 22nd birthday. Which I made into some kinda extravagant event simply because I wanted to make up for my super sucky 21st birthday in 2009. Lol. I even went to Universal Studios on my birthday!

    I also had my very first car accident in 2010. But of course, I shan't dwell into that, for a good reason. Haha.

    And I got my first job! Which I'm still super excited about! I'm not sure if this is exactly what I want to do for the rest of my life, but I do know that for now, I love my job, and I love the people I work with. I've met some really amazing and talented people, and made a whole bunch of new friends too. Above all that, I've attended some pretty cool concerts and parties, and learnt a lot from the various different shoots. And of course, I got to meet Rick Astley! Haha!

    I graduated in 2010! Which was one of the more exciting things that happened! It was something I have been looking forward to for the longest time.

    But I think, without a doubt, one of the most exciting things that happened this year must definitely be The Accidental Wakeup. I'm not a singer, neither am I a musician. The only time I'll sing in front of a crowd is... well, never. I love music, and I love singing, but I know I'm not singer-material. So being a part of a band definitely helped build up some kinda confidence in me. Plus, I love my bandmates and we have the most incredible fun together!

    In 2010, I also got super hooked on sitcoms like Modern Family (omghhkp so good), Jersey Shore, Kate Plus 8 and Glee. I discovered the wonders of youtube - namely, KevJumba, Ryan Higa, Chester See, David Choi, Wong Fu Productions, Natalie Tran, Kina Grannis etc. Youtube also fuels my love for makeup, no thanks to gurus like Juicystar07 and Michelle Phan.

    In the relationship department... well, I haven't been doing much about it. Of course, I spent half the year crushing on a guy who was in love with someone else. But hey! All's good! And we're still great friends! 2010 has been pretty mellow in the love department. But.... I don't know. I feel like things might be picking up as this year draws to a close.

    All in all, I'm satisfied with 2010. And that's something I'm afraid I haven't been able to say much about the past few years. So I'm really happy! I can only hope that 2011 would be equally good. I don't even wish for more. Just an equal amount of happiness would suffice.

    By the end of this year, I've made so many new friends. Albeit still missing some old and lost friends. But I guess what's gone is gone. There's no use looking back. Ever. I just need to keep looking forward and know that I'm blessed. I thank God for everything that I have. And I thank Him for giving me all that I have.

    C'mon 2011!! Bring it on!