Went to Johor Bahru last Saturday with the cousins! It was great! We took a bus in collectively and we made it there in no time - no jams, nothing. We had Bak Kut Teh for lunch. The best and cheapest lunch ever! Thomas came over to JB after work and joined us for dinner! Seafood dinner at Taman Sentosa was awesome, and cheap again!

We also shopped till we dropped. I spent so much money, I may very well have to survive on white bread and porridge for the rest of the month. But of course.... I say that after every shopping spree. I should've learnt! But I'm so happy with the things I brought back!

I bought another stuffed puppy! Haha! I have 2 of those now! My little Tasha replicas! And I also spent most of my money on makeup. But I couldn't help it! Makeup is so cheap there! I went insane!

Can't wait to go back to JB again and buy MORE makeup!

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HAHAHAHAHA!
Last week's 'The Big Bang Theory' cracked me up so bad!

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You know what's better than Bruno Mars' sexy voice?

(Hint: Chester See)

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Went to Auntie Esther's house last Friday with the family, and the cousins and I met this little cutie: 

Everyone, meet Truffle! Nat's oh-so-cute little corgi! She's the most adorable little thing ever! And she kinda looks like my Tasha - with shorter legs and ears twice the size! But she's to die for!

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I haven't managed to watch last week's episode of The Amazing Race yet, but I do kinda know what happened - it was Team Jumba's last week on the race. And I found out on Monday through a huge flood of spoilers on Twitter. Well, mainly David Choi, who tweeted that Team Jumba was out. I was so broken.

Suffice to say, The Amazing Race will probably be seeing a huge drop in ratings now that all the Team Jumba fans (myself included) ain't gonna be continuing to watch the show anymore. Lol. There's just no point! And it's sad seeing how upset Kevjumba is about losing the race on Twitter and Facebook. But oh wells! Life goes on! And we'll continue seeing them on youtube! Which is awesome!

Come to think of it, I'm very reluctant to watch last week's episode of The Amazing Race now. I have the episode sitting on my desk top now, but I think I might watch it some other day. I'm not mentally ready to watch Team Jumba get kicked out of the race yet. But now that the race is over, I wish Kevjumba would go back to making his usual videos now! I miss those so much!

[UPDATE: So I watched The Amazing Race. Yes, I caved. Don't judge.

Turns out, Team Jumba lost not because they were last in the race! They lost because Kevin misread the instructions and broke a few rules! They lost because of a technicality! Not because they were not athletic enough! Kevjumba looked so crushed. I felt so bad for him. I honestly wanted to cry. I know he must blame himself for their elimination. Poor Kevin. But hearing what Papa Jumba had to say was really heartwarming. I love Team Jumba! Whatever it is, they did well! Good job guys!]

Halloween was uneventful for me. But then again, I've never ever celebrated Halloween before in my entire life. Haha. I kinda wished that I could've had a Halloween party this year though. Just because I knew exactly what I wanted to dress up as - Snooki from Jersey Shore. LOL. I jest.

Despite my gut-wrenching cramps, I managed to drag myself - bleeding uterus and all - down to meet the nephew and the Godsister. We had fun!

We went back to my place after that and attempted to watch horror flicks with our other little cousins, but murphy's law decided to come into place, and we just couldn't find the perfect horror movie!

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Had an awesome AWESOME band practice last night. We got everything done in 2 hours! I think Mel was right - getting a change in environment does make us more efficient.

Since the weddings are done for now and we need to focus on our YMCA gig at Marina Barrage, we took our band practices out of Mel's house and into a real jamming studio. Reason being that now we need a full band setup, complete with amps and drums. So Thomas booked us a great jamming studio at Chinatown yesterday, we jammed for 2 hours straight! And this is where all the money we earn from our wedding gigs go to. Haha. Band fund for studio bookings.

I didn't record anything last night 'cause we didn't have the full band with us since Edwin is currently in Melbourne. Can't wait to see half of the band again tomorrow for movie night!

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I'm so glad we have the long weekends this week! The whole family will be gathering at Nat's house on Friday, just for fun! Don't really know yet what the cousins and I will be doing while the adults play Mahjong, but we'll find our own entertainment for sure!

And then the cousins and I are going to JB this Saturday! Woohoo!! Shop shop shop! Eat eat eat! Can't wait!!

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Oh David.... Poor David. I feel so sorry for him, 'cause I think I know exactly how he feels.

After we put Tasha to sleep, I seldom stayed at home too. I couldn't bring myself to come back to an empty house, knowing she wasn't there anymore. Sometimes, even till this very day, I wake up in the morning and truly believe that I'm going to open my room door and see her beautiful face looking up at me accusingly as I disrupt her sleep. Heh. But of course, reality kicks in and I know I ain't ever gonna see her again.

Snoopy was David's best friend since he was nine. Tasha was my best friend since I was nine too. She left way too soon.

I don't think I will ever be able to get over her. I don't think I can ever love another dog the same way again.

I think it's really sweet what David's mom did though - to get him a new dog. I don't know if that's the best way to get over Snoopy's death, but then again, I doubt David will ever get over it anyways. David's like Charlie Brown, and he lost his Snoopy. I bawled buckets of tears watching that 2 videos above. It brought back too many painful memories. My heart aches for David.

And I miss my Baby Girl too....

You're the best I ever had.
Sorry I didn't fight hard enough to keep you here longer. You deserved to have a longer life.
Sorry for the times I teased you and bullied you.
You need to know that you were my best friend.
I can never shed enough tears for you.

My baby fluffy wuffy.
Everyday, I miss you.

The cousins and friends and I threw the most perfect and most successful surprise birthday party for Mel last Saturday!

It all started off in the afternoon when Edwin was over at Mel and Ryan's place. We then told Mel to meet us at Siglap for dinner after she goes to send some friends off at the airport. And Edwin, being the genius that he is, managed to convince Mel to pass him their house keys so that he can stay in the house while they're out at the airport before coming back to pick him up to meet us. So while Ryan brought Mel out, we all scrambled over to their place and decorated the house.

The funny part was luring Mel home. Edwin had to call Mel and say that he 'accidentally' choked their toilet after doing a number 2. Haha! So we all hid behind the door, and when Mel rushed home, we jumped out and shouted 'Surprise!' Boy was she surprised! It was awesome!

We spent the rest of the night playing games and getting drunk. We played Balderdash, and Indian poker, and finally, a hilarious game called 'drinking goggles'. I don't know if it was the alcohol, the atmosphere, or just us, but we laughed so hard that night, I'm pretty sure half of us had nightmares after that. Lol!

It was so hilarious! I was laughing so hard I couldn't even breathe! We left pretty late that night, at around 2am. And we all still had to go to church the next day.

The next day, I only woke up in time for lunch, and then we had to rush off to St Michael's church to meet the rest of the family. My cousins and I were still laughing at the jokes from the night before. Lol! We were at St Michael's for my Grandfather's death anniversary.

I really miss him. Out of all the family members that has passed on, I miss my Grandfather the most.

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After St Michael's on Sunday, Mel, Ryan and I went home, while the rest went over to Godpa's house.

In the evening, Mel, Ryan and Thomas came to pick me up, and off we went to perform at The Accidental Wakeup's FIRST PAID GIG!

It was awesome! We made a few mistakes here and there, but I think it was a great performance in all! We said a group prayer before we went on stage, and He was there!

We sang a total of about 10 songs, but we only recorded 4 of them. So here they are (sorry for the random people who kept standing infront of my camera):

The Accidental Wakeup took time off band practice on Thursday to celebrate Mel's birthday!

I made Mel a homemade Oreo... erm... cakelike thing. It looks a bit dubious, but I promise you, it tasted so good! I've been on the craziest baking frenzy the past few weeks. Just last night, I baked brownies! Gonna bring them over to the party tonight for the cousins to taste!

Anyway, we had Oreo cake, Cheng Teng, and Edwin brought a bottle of Moscato - which turned out to be the most hilarious thing ever, but I will leave that for later.

We managed to practice all the songs we're gonna do tomorrow. I'm really nervous. I've never done something like this before. And tomorrow is our first paid gig. We're singing at a wedding, and we don't even know who the bridal couple are. I don't wanna screw something up and drag the entire band down with me. Oh wells, I can only pray that everything goes well tomorrow!

And here's my very humble rendition of 'Nobody' by the Wondergirls that I will be singing tomorrow:

I think I can do better, so I'll just have to remember all my lyrics and give it my all tomorrow!

In other news, our band has a very contagious disease. Every week when we have band practice, as the night gets older, and we get more tired, we turn a little insane. And I managed to capture it all on video on Thursday. Haha!

I think it's safe to say that Edwin is the carrier of the disease. As the clock strikes 10pm, he starts to go insane and twirl around on the floor. Lol!

Oh, and speaking of Edwin, I will now explain the hilarity that is the bottle of Moscato he brought over. For some reason, the cork in the bottle just refuses to come out. That resulted in Ryan and Edwin spending way too long trying to force the cork out of the bottle. In the end, Ryan just pushed the entire cork into the bottle instead, and as Thomas mentioned, we ended up drinking wood-infused Moscato. Haha!

As mentioned before,  I was not looking forward to convocation at all. I was having mixed feelings, and I didn't know what to expect. I was dreading it, and kinda regretted signing up for it. BUT, it all changed as the date drew nearer.

My boss gave me half a day off on Monday to go take graduation photos with my parents. That was when the excitement all set in! It was cute seeing my parents run around the house making sure they all looked good. My Dad even got a hair cut and dyed his hair. Lol! When we were there in the studio, and I put on my graduation gown, that was when I fully digested the whole concept of graduation. It didn't matter to me anymore who I may or may not see during convocation. I was gonna enjoy myself. I worked hard for it!

After we took graduation photos, my Dad even treated me to a graduation dinner! We had lobsters, and crabs, and all sorts of goodies!

When Tuesday came, I practically flew out of bed in the morning and was in an all-day hyper state. I was insane. Haha! I was so excited I couldn't even sit still for more than a minute. The best part was when I went on MSN to chat with Mel, and I was telling her how I wished the band could come down for my graduation. And without hesitation or any need for persuasion, Mel told me she would definitely come down to show her support for me and take pictures! HOW AWESOME ARE THEY?! When I knew that Mel, Ryan and Thomas would be coming down, I got even more excited. I ran around the house singing at the top of my voice. Lol!

Anyway, graduation was awesome! It was nice seeing everyone all dressed up!

The ceremony was short and sweet! Thank God I didn't fall on stage!

And of course, the MOST AWESOMEST peeps in the world - The Accidental Wakeup!
Who rushed down at the last moment to enjoy this special day with me!
It may not be the full band ('cause Edwin was playing tennis. LOL) but it's enough for me!
And not only did they rush down, THEY BROUGHT ME FLOWERS! *cries*
 

Graduation was awesome. I swear I was close to tears sitting there in the ballroom waiting for my name to be called out.
 

God I'm so happy! I'm so glad I decided to go for my own graduation. It was a great experience, and I think a wonderful experience for my parents too. And it makes me happy to see them so happy. I feel like I finally did something good enough for them to be proud of.

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I wrote a little note and posted it on Facebook tagging some people. It's just a little something I had to say after graduation. I'm gonna post it again here -

After 14 years of education, I finally fulfilled my parents and my lifelong dream of wearing that square mortar board and walking up on stage to collect my Bachelor's Degree.

And at 22, my academic career officially draws to a close. Obviously, this all would not have been made possible if it weren't for some very important people in my life. And over here, I would like to give them a little shoutout.

Firstly, My Lord God Almighty - For without Him, I wouldn't be me. I am filled with so much praise and worship for Him for giving me all that I have and for blessing me with the chance to experience all these years of fruitful education. And it is also because of Him that I managed to meet all the wonderful people that I will mention below.

My Parents - For going to hell and back to make sure that I have nothing but the best. For always being there for me with advice and guidance, and yet never interfering with my decisions and choices. For supporting my course of study - spiritually, emotionally, and financially. I wish I could ask you to stop worrying about me from this point on, but I know that's impossible. But for all that you've given up to give me what I have, I promise that I will give back twofold. I won't let you down. I love you more than you can ever know or understand.

My Cousins - For just being the crazy people that you are! I can't even begin to explain how thankful I am for having you guys in my life! You've all been my pillar of strength, and my sanity when things go out of hand! You guys have made growing up as an only child exciting and wonderful! Though you guys bully me a lot, I still love you all! And I will always be your little baby cousin Poots!

My Godsister, Raynie - For your constant words of encouragement, and always letting me know that you are there. You're more than a sister to me, you're like my best friend! And I love you loads! And I cannot wait to see my precious Rand and Rachel in their own graduation gowns and caps one day!

My Uncles and Aunties - For being a role model and inspiration. I will never forget all of your words of wisdom, and all the love and concern you've showered me over the years. Each and every single one of you has made a huge difference in my life, and for that, I am thankful everyday. And I hope to be a role model and inspiration for all my younger cousins as well!

My Friends - There are too many of you, but I do sure hope you know who you are! From my secondary school KC girls to my CMM 'huatters', you guys have been the best comic relief! I miss you all so much!

Fera and Tham - You girls were my sanity in university. Honestly, I don't know how I would've survived those crazy 16 months without you! We've laughed and cried together, and now we're stronger than ever! I love you girls so much!

Piya - Thanks for being the best lecturer ever! I miss those crazy meetings with 'The Expendables' for Project Reach! Thanks for helping me get my distinction!!!

My Murdoch mobsters - Thanks for making those 16 months so memorable for me! We may not see each other as often right now, but do know that I keep each and every one of you in my prayers daily.

To all my fellow graduates - ORD LOHHHHHH!!!!! School's out! Scream and shout!

 

16 months isn't considered long for a university education. But I think I've learnt so much. And I'm not just talking about textbook knowledge. I've learnt so much about life as well.

I've learnt that people come and go, sometimes, no matter how hard you try, you can't stop things from changing. I've learnt that life gets tough, but you just need to keep pushing on.

Most importantly, I've learnt how to love, and then let go (the hard way). I've learnt that heartbreak can't really kill you, though you wish it would. I've learnt that time doesn't really heal heartbreak, it just makes you get used to the pain. And finally, I've learnt that what can't kill you, really does make you stronger.

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I just think this is such an appropriate song and video for now. Haha!

The day after the Retrolicious concert, I managed to drag my exhausted ass out of bed and headed down to East Coast Park with my Godsister, and my precious nephew and niece! We cycled down to the turtle pond, and then to Bedok jetty.
 

 

I look at these children sometimes and I think to myself: "I am so lucky." Seriously, they make me happier than I could ever be. And I feel so honoured and fortunate that they are a part of my life. I love them so much it amazes me!

So shame on you for abandoning such precious, beautiful children! Shame on you! You have no idea how lucky you are to have such a beautiful family! But you will regret it. Boy oh boy will you regret it. And when you do, we will all be standing at the sideline watching you beat your own chest! You put all men to shame! You gave up a gorgeous wife and amazing children on the pretense of wanting 'freedom'. Well honey, 'freedom' is going to come back and bite you in the ass!

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First day of shoot for our documentary took place just yesterday. It was an interesting shoot. Could've been better though. But I shan't complain! Though I really wish Naresh or Khai could have shot for us instead. We would have had so much fun together! But oh wells.... it was a last minute shoot, so we had to scramble and get whichever camera operator that was available.

We shot on a 5D which was awesome! This is my...... 3rd time on a shoot with a 5D camera. Yep. 3rd. The first time was when we were shooting a wedding with Naresh, and the second was during Mathilda's music video shoot with Singapore's legendary steadicam operator - Joel. (I realise you just have to google 'steadicam Joel' and his name pops up everywhere. Legendary indeed! It was an honour working with him!)

The 5D never fails to amaze me. I wish I had a chance to learn how to work it. And I also wish I had a chance to work with the 7D. As a matter of fact, I just found out that they're coming out with a 60D! *faints* Oh technology.....

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Convocation is next Tuesday. I'm having mixed feelings about it. On one hand, it's like - GRADUATION FINALLY ! On the other hand, it's like - DAMN GRADUATION FINALLY . Y'know?

I'm glad it's here, but I'm also sad that this marks the end of my academic career.

And I guess... one more thing... I'm kinda dreading the people, or rather person, that I might see at convocation. Ughh... I know this should be the last thing on my mind. But it occurred to me the other day what the situation might be, and I couldn't stop thinking about it ever since.

I don't want to see him. Just for the plain and simple reason that he will ruin my day.

And the irony is that the person I do want to see, well... won't be there.

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The Accidental Wakeup has finally launched our own Facebook, Youtube and WordPress pages!

WordPress

Facebook

Youtube

I know it has taken a really long time for us to launch our pages, but we've all been so swamped with work and band practices! We are finally having our very own PAID GIG next Sunday! It's nerve-wrecking but exciting at the same time! And for some reason, I've been bumped up to sing more than 1 song now. I don't even know how that happened! Lol. But I'm looking forward to it, and I just hope I don't screw up!

And in even happier news, The Accidental Wakeup will also be performing at our own public gig come December 5th at Marina Barrage in front of THOUSANDS! Ok, I don't really know if it's thousands, but that's what I heard. Hahaha.

Stay tuned for more news on The Accidental Wakeup! Alternatively, 'like' our fanpage on Facebook, subscribe to our channel on Youtube, and keep visiting our WordPress for more details!

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Last week's episode of The Amazing Race left me breathless and in tears! I was bawling by the end of the episode! Kevjumba and Papa Jumba are so brave, but they just couldn't make it. And watching Papa Jumba struggle and cry just broke my heart into pieces. I mean, the guy is old, but he's really brave. And Kevjumba really melted my heart. You can just tell how much he loves his Dad. You see him teasing and making fun of his Dad all the time, but yet this time around, he was so sweet!

I'm just go glad, Team Jumba made it in the end! Go Team Jumba! The sweetest father-son team ever! Watch the clip below and you'll see what I mean:

Things like this always makes me cry! I can take romantic sad movies and all that jazz, but when it comes to movies that deals with kinship, I'll lose it.

I remember a couple of Wednesdays ago, I came home from work in the evening and had to stay awake for about 6 hours before I had to leave the house at 12am and go to Zouk for the mambo jambo shoot. In a desperate attempt to stay awake, I started watching whatever shows I could get. So I watched The Last Song.

I was pissed. When The Last Song came out, everyone was like 'Miley this, Miley that. Miley rocks, Miley sucks. Liam and Miley yada yada yada.' And yet, everyone failed to mention the plot of The Last Song! Did you know that the Dad in The Last Song dies at the end of the movie?! HE DIES for cryin' out loud! Did you know how much I cried when the Dad died?!

Oh my God. Worst mistake of my life watching that movie before shoot. When I went to Zouk in the end, my eyes were almost swollen shut. I look diseased.

I can't dealt with movies like this - movies where parents or siblings die. AND PETS. Especially dogs. I was so depressed after I read Marley and Me. So depressed that I couldn't even bring myself to finish the book, because I know Marley dies. And when I watched the movie..... I cried like as if the world ended. I'm such a loser.

So you can understand why I bawled my eyes out watching Team Jumba struggle. I love Kevjumba and Papa Jumba even more now!

But, the Retrolicious Concert was also kinda exciting for me because of all the pre-work that I did. Those who follow me closely on Twitter should know that I spent the past 4 Wednesday nights at Zouk. And I wasn't there to mambo jambo or party like a rockstar. I was there to work. Yes, I was at Zouk to work. And it was dreadful because of the ungodly hour, plus I really don't like clubs.

I would work in the day, and then go home in the evenings, try my best to keep awake, and leave the house at midnight to meet my clients and camera guy at Zouk at 1am for a shoot. And that was all in preparation for the Retrolicious concert.

But when Friday night arrived and I had to go down to Fort Canning for the Retrolicious tech run, I actually started to get really excited about the concert the next day. And I wasn't the only one. I went on Facebook on Friday night, and ALL my camera operators' statuses were raving about how they can't wait for Retrolicious. Lol. So that kinda psyched me up even more.

Anyway, on Saturday, we went down to Fort Canning early in the afternoon to set up our cameras, live feed and all. My company was basically covering the entire event. And this was the first big-scale concert that we were doing, so it was exciting as hell!

Adam, Khai and Naresh were doing cameras that day, and we had a blast! Lol. But then again, we always have fun together, no matter what kinda shoot it is.

When evening came, the doors opened, and the crowd that filled Fort Canning was insane. There were 6,500 people who came to watch the Retrolicious concert! That is ALOT of people! I don't think the Fort Canning has ever seen such a crowd before.

The crowd filled up slow initially, but by the night of the night, the venue was exploding!

The Class 95 DJs came out and teased the crowd for a little bit. And since this was a Class 95 event after all, they played games with the crowd and all. It was fun!

The concert started off with Johnny Hates Jazz. And quite honestly, I had no idea who Johnny Hates Jazz was prior to this concert. However, when listening to them sing, I actually did recognize some of their songs. And I must say, they sound awesome!

Debbie Gibson was up next, and oh my God, that lady is smokin' hot! I mean, she is way hotter than when she was younger! And she sounds exactly the same. Which I gotta say, is kinda freaky. But she was sexy, and cute, and funny, and everything! Her set was way too short, but she was a brilliant performer.

Last but not least we had Rick Astley, who was no doubt the highlight of the night. The crowd went absolutely insane when he appeared onstage. It was kinda hilarious really! And I never thought that he would have such hardcore fans, but he did!

And he was charming, he sounds good, he was funny, handsome, and totally a crowd pleaser! Oh Rick was so cute!

'Never Gonna Give You Up' Live!

'Together Forever' Live!

(I'm gonna upload all my videos to youtube now. 'Cause photobucket sucks.)

The night ended with a bang and even though I was working that night, I had so much fun!

I really had so much fun during the concert. But I gotta say, I can't speak for the rest of the people at Retrolicious. I mean, I had the perks of being part of the crew. With a lanyard around my neck, I had an all access pass to the entire concert. I could roam freely around the place, move in and out of restricted areas and all. In fact, the reason why I got such a good angle on my camera was because I was right in front of the stage. The restricted area where only photographers and security were allowed.

The public, on the other hand, had it bad. With 6,500 people at the Fort Canning, everyone was squeezing together. It was hot, and humid, and the crowd was unbelievable. I honestly think that if I was one of the many audiences crushed amidst the crowd, I would be very very unhappy.

BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT. I haven't gotten to the best part of the night yet. The atmosphere was great, the people were great, the music was great, and the concert was just fabulous. But the best part of the night was................

I TOOK A PICTURE WITH RICK ASTLEY Y'ALL!

It was hilarious! That actually wasn't our first interaction with Rick Astley. Earlier in the afternoon when we were there to set up, all the stars were there for their sound check. My crew and I were over at the media console, waiting to test our cameras and feed. Suddenly, a Caucasian man walked up to where we were and started talking to the sound guy. We were unfazed.

All of a suddenly, like as if a lightbulb lit up in our heads all at the same time, Naresh, Khai and I looked at each other and mouthed the words: "Oh my God, is that Rick Astley?" We didn't know. We had no frickin' idea. We didn't know how Rick Astley looked like now, all we had was an image of him in his much younger days. The lanyard we had around our necks had a picture of a young Rick Astley, so we kept holding it up and comparing their faces.

Naresh lost it. He insisted we go take a picture with the Caucasian man. Khai and I refused 'cause we didn't know if that was indeed Rick Astley or not.

From the corner of our eyes, we then saw Adam talking to a big burly man in black at the side. We realized immediately that that big burly man was a bodyguard! OH MY GOD THAT WAS RICK ASTLEY! When we figured that out, too late, the bodyguard and Rick Astley was already making their way back to the stage.

At the end of the night, when the concert was over, we abandoned our cameras and whatnots and ran backstage. There, we saw the glorious Rick Astley. We asked him to take a picture with us, and he said yes! And he was the nicest guy ever! Omgkkhp I love Rick Astley!

An incredible night it was! The funniest part was after the concert, when we all got home, it was already 2am. But everyone was still not over the Retrolicious high, so we all got on Facebook and started spamming each other. And we all had the same statuses! Haha!

As a matter of fact, till this day, 3 days after the concert, we're still spamming each other with mambo nonsense. Lol!

The entire Rupture crew at Retrolicious:

Personally, the best part of the concert was having Beatrice Chia and Mark Richmond telling the crew that we did a good job with the cameras and live feed. Sense of satisfaction indeed!

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Random picture taken while clowning around backstage during the Vlee Conference some time back. Hahaha. Shane with his pretty makeup! Lol.

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This is totally the soundtrack of my life at this point in time.

Hello, tell me you know
Yeah, you figured me out
Something gave it away
It would be such a beautiful moment
To see the look on your face
To know that I know that you know now

And baby that's a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing

Well you and I
Why, we go carrying on for hours on end
We get along much better
Than you and your boyfriend

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

How long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn't healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all

Cause maybe there's a lot that I miss
In case I'm wrong

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

If I should be so bold
I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
I'd tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man
But I never said a word
I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again

All I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
I think it might kill me

And all I really want from you is to feel me
Yeah, the feeling inside keeps building
I'll find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
It might kill me

We had the most awesomest party on Sunday at my place! It was sooooo amazing!

It was supposed to be a very healthy cupcake-making/mahjong/movie-marathon party. And we did pretty much all that. But we also ended up getting half drunk playing made-up alcohol roulette.

It all started out with the cousins and Neil coming over to my place in the afternoon to bake red velvet cupcakes (that weren't red at all). Baking the cupcakes was surprisingly really easy! We had loads of fun measuring ingredients and just basically messing up my kitchen, much to my Mom's dismay. But our cupcakes turned out oh-so-yummy! We made such a huge batch, everyone took some home at the end of the night, and I currently still have a tub of cupcakes sitting in my fridge. But I'm not complaining! 'Cause it's delicious!

Watch this to take a look at our cupcake-making madness!

I know our cupcake-making process looks like a nightmare, but trust me when I say that the cupcakes, icing and frosting came out PERFECT.

So once the cupcakes were done, Edwin, Val and Thomas (the other half of The Accidental Wakeup) came just in time for dinner and after dinner activities. We were supposed to watch Donnie Yen movies (or at least I really wanted to watch more Donnie Yen movies), but my Dad decided that it would be more fun to get all my cousins and friends drunk. So I took out the shot glass roulette game set that I got for my birthday, and we went nuts.

My Dad basically made up his own drinking game, and everyone just fell for it. I think biggest casualties of the night had to be the Wee siblings. Edwin and Val got the worst of it, downing shots after shots of alcohol. It was hilarious.

Too bad it was a Sunday night, and everyone had to work or go to school the next day. But then again, thank God, 'cause otherwise I think my Dad would not have let anyone out sober. Lol.