And just like that. We’re into the new year again. I’m not the only one who felt like 2013 went by extra fast right?
Once again, I’ve got nothing bad to say about my year. For once in my life, I am not alone – literally and metaphorically. I feel like my life is finally going somewhere. I finally have direction. And that feels superb. Whatever bad that happened in the past feels lightyears away. I have never been more loved before in my life, and I don’t even remember what it feels like to be sad anymore.
I’m finally content and learning each day how to be satisfied with my life. There are so many things I am grateful for, but that being said, there are so many things I would like to change. I’m only human after all. But despite the yearning for change, I am learning to accept reality for what it is. But in no way am I settling. Yearning for change means striving to be better. It means the determination to work harder and to do something to make a difference.
In 2013, I have finally learnt to let go of some people in my life. People change, and friends go away. That’s life. It’s nothing to be too suicidal over. Some failed friendships are like dairy products – you leave it on the shelf for too long past its expiration date and it starts to curdle. Better to just let go of it. I don’t need unnecessary baggage anyway.
Some friendships though, I managed to rekindle. And that makes me so happy. At the last leg of 2013, I felt like I managed to connect with you again. Isn’t it strange how tragedies always seem to bring us back together? And as easily as I got you back, I feel like you’re slipping through my fingers again. What’s wrong with us? How did something that used to be so natural now seem so forced and artificial? I thought I left you in good hands. Now that things fell through again… all I can say is that I wish you love for 2014. I wish you find whatever it is you’re looking for. Just like how I’ve found mine.
2014 is the year of working hard. This is the year we work to make our dreams come true. That’s all I’m going to focus on for now. And trust me, I’m gonna work my ass off. I’ve waited far too long for this and I ain’t getting any younger. There are some things in life you just can’t give up on.
I’m so glad I have the most beautiful people beside me to work with me and to motivate me. I’m so glad I have Kane, who I love more than life itself. I’m so glad I have my parents, who I would lay down my life for. I’m so glad I have the most loving and generous family who always makes me feel like the luckiest girl in the world.
Life is good and love is in abundance. 2014 is going to be a great year.